From: fehr7176@rogers.com   
      
   Have you ever considered the fact that God love you?  The Gospel of John 3:   
   16, 17 has a good answer "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only   
   begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have   
   everlasting life. For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the   
   world; but that the world through him might be saved."  Suicide is too final   
   and is not the answer.   
      
   I hope you will take a moment to think about this solid truth.   
      
   Abe   
      
      
   "dude living the suburbs"  wrote in message   
   news:1114334775.808384.313280@z14g2000cwz.googlegroups.com...   
   > hi.  i have so much to say. not just in this post, but maybe later too.   
   > who knows?   
   >   
   > i want to fucking cry right now.  i hate life.  i live in the suburbs.   
   > i like the suburbs, but i also hate the suburbs. the suburbs is my   
   > life.  i was born in the city but i know nothing of the city.  so   
   > really i am from the suburbs, cuz thats all i know.   it must be the   
   > suburbs and everything about it, that makes me want to die. not the   
   > suburbs itself, but the people in the suburbs. the way people are.   
   > what they do and don't do.  all the shit.  i mean, people are cruel and   
   > horrible and materialistic, and hypocrites, and they are so fucked up,   
   > and being the sensitive thin-skinned person that i am,  it kills me.   
   > my parents. their friends. their relatives. neighbors. school people.   
   > police. assholes. everyone around me.   
   >   
   > what the hell am i saying?  heh, i am saying that i cannot fucking   
   > stand it anymore. i fucking quit. i cannot fucking wait to die. that   
   > doesnt mean im going end it all. nope. because, oh no, i just cannot do   
   > that. i must go on suffering, because i am too much of a fucking   
   > chicken shit to "opt out" of life. you know what i mean?  fuck!   
   >   
   > now maybe i should leave the suburbs.  but what will i do??  i dont   
   > know anything but the suburbs. i might just freaking explode if i   
   > leave. it would be unatural for me to leave the suburbs. like taking a   
   > fish out of water. or a lion out of the savanna. or whatever. i want to   
   > die for so many reasons.  i have no method, because im not serious   
   > about dying. i just want to vent, and feel bad. oh and you know what i   
   > believe in?   i believe that there is no such thing as feeling too   
   > sorry for yourself.   i don't believe in that fucking crap that people   
   > say "stop feeling sorry for yourself"  because that is bullshit.  I am   
   > totally oblivious to that crap.  if people need to feel sorry for   
   > themselves and cry and complain, thats good, i will help out. gladly!   
   > because this world is   
   > soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo   
   > fucked up and  soooooooooo overwelming, that, i am baffled why more   
   > people don't complain more, and feel sorry for themselves, and feel   
   > more sorry for themselves then they already do.   
   >   
   > am i making any sense?  well, if i am not, i don't care.   
   >   
   > afterall, i am from the suburbs. and that makes me blank, and numb, and   
   > "angst" or whatever, and zoned out, and confused, and unhappy, and   
   > miserable,  and suicidal, or at least thinking i want to be suicidial,   
   > and all kinds of other typical things that people from the suburbs are.   
   > but i am not materialistic. or alot of the bad things that people from   
   > the suburbs often are. shit, i dont know what the fuck i am saying.   
   >   
   > what AM i saying?   
   >   
   > i am saying, FUCK i am hurt.  kill me !   
   >   
   > cry!   
   >   
   > angst!   
   >   
   > shit!   
   >   
   > help!   
   >   
   > no wait, kill me instead!   
   >   
   > blah blah blah blah   
   >   
   >   
   > i want to be suicidal.  maybe on a holiday. maybe on a regular day.   
   >   
   >   
   > i hate life.  my emotions are running me.  i want to quit.   
   >   
   > quit everything.   
   >   
   > all the things that worthless assholes make me think i have to do. like   
   > have this or that.  it is all bullshit. all bullshit.  temporary.  life   
   > is temporary. pain is temporary.   this fucking emotional hurt inside   
   > of me, in my chest,  in my eyes, in my throat, and in my stomache, is   
   > temporary.   
   >   
   > its all fucking temporary.   
   >   
   > the fucking suburbs are temporary.   
   >   
   > suicide is temporary.   
   >   
   > bullshit is temporary.   
   >   
   > all of you on ASH, the pain that YOU all feel in your life is   
   > temporary.   
   >   
   > because this FUCKING life that we did not fucking choose, is fucking   
   > temporary.   
   >   
      
   --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05   
    * Origin: you cannot sedate... all the things you hate (1:229/2)