From: mickeymaschke@adelphia.net   
      
   I posted to this forum yesterday. Since the I have been called a fraud. I   
   have been called a liar. I have been accused of seeking donations. It has   
   been said that I have no right to have Don Quixote as a hero. It has been   
   said that my web site, listed below, is all about trying to get PITY for me.   
   And I've been attacked left and right. All this has happened coming from   
   people who I presume are mentally ill in one way or another since this forum   
   deals with mental illness.   
      
   This is very depressing since I am doing nothing other than running an   
   online support group for us, the mentally ill. I do NOT seek donations. I do   
   NOT seek anyone to do my work for me. I do NOT, and have NOT put my web site   
   up in order to seek PITY from others. I have NOT posted here in order to   
   INSULT anyone or to DEGRADE the mentally ill.   
      
   These ATTACKS by others, which are here in this forum under the heading of   
   "The Moon List" are attacks against me, a person who is mentally ill. And   
   when they attack me, they attack ALL people who are mentally ill. For I am   
   one of millions in the world, and in the United States who suffer from   
   mental illness. Every single hour of every single day, in the United States,   
   according to the National Institute of Mental Health, over 100 suicides are   
   attempted, with 5 being successful. So that means that every single hour,   
   people are taking their own lives. The people who have attacked me so meanly   
   have achieved one thing. They have thrown me into a depression which I   
   suffer from. They have made my self esteem sink lower than it already is.   
   And these people who have attacked me have done so in order to make   
   themselves feel good. NO ONE made these people do this to me. They have had   
   the choice to either be KIND, or to be CRUEL. And they have chosen, ON THEIR   
   OWN to be CRUEL... and this says a lot about them, and a lot about the   
   people of this forum.   
      
   I have heard from several people who have said the alt groups are mean,   
   cruel and filled with hate and liars. I did not want to believe them. But   
   after the reception I have had here I can see why these people have said   
   this to me.   
      
   The truth of the matter is the following.   
      
   My name is Mickey Maschke. I am disabled with mental illness. I suffer from   
   Schizophrenia, Depression, Anxiety, Paranoia, Agoraphobia, Acrophobia, and   
   PTSD, and Chronic Pain from a spinal injury. My web site, listed below, is   
   NOT about me. There is a page on the web site that talks about my life and   
   what I have gone through. But that is only there for background and nothing   
   more. The page about Don Quixote is there because he is my hero, and I am   
   entitled to have as my hero anyone I choose to. For those disgusting people   
   who have attacked me for NO VALID reason, they are showing themselves to be   
   vicious, cruel and disgusting people and people who believe that it is   
   better to KILL ALL the mentally ill than to show any compassion to us at   
   all. I DO NOT LIE... I tell the truth. And everything that I have posted to   
   this forum has been the truth, about me as well as about the support group   
   that I am part of and that I moderate. The people who have attacked me did   
   so with the intention of DRIVING ME OFF the forum and to KEEP me out of the   
   forum. These people do NOT want anyone in this forum unless THEY decide that   
   the person should be allowed here. These forums are PUBLIC forums. These   
   people have NO right to push others around. And I shall not be pushed around   
   by them, NO MATTER WHAT.   
      
   I have been beaten with crow bars for being mentally ill. I have had a gun   
   put to my head and heard it cocked for being mentally ill. I have been   
   homeless at one time. And I have SURVIVED all of this... Thus, as these   
   hateful people have attacked me and will ATTACK me now, I shall not be   
   pushed around by them. NOT NOW, NOT EVER...   
      
   I am posting this message here for those who feel like I do... that NO   
   mentally ill person should be abused. These people who attacked me did NOT   
   read what I wrote. For in the support group that I moderate the ONLY rule is   
   to be KIND... and these people who have attacked me are NOT KIND... they are   
   NOT KIND when they are attacking someone. ATTACK is not a gesture of   
   KINDNESS it is a gesture of CRUELTY... regardless of what these people want   
   to say.   
      
   I shall continue to post here and be a part of this forum, regardless of   
   these people who are doing WHATEVER they can to DRIVE ME OUT... I have the   
   same right to be here as they do. The SAME RIGHT....   
      
   If anyone has anything to say to me, my email is mickeymaschke@adelphia.net.   
   And I look forward to hearing from anyone, INCLUDING THOSE WHO HAVE HATE FOR   
   ME AND WHO WANT TO DRIVE ME AWAY FROM THIS FORUM. I will answer any email   
   regardless of the hate that someone directs at me. If someone wants to know   
   the TRUTH about me and my efforts, the place to find that TRUTH is NOT from   
   those who are ATTACKING me, but from ME.  I am the ONLY person who KNOWS my   
   mind and what I am about... These other people know NOTHING... and they are   
   attacking me because they are MEAN and CRUEL when they could be KIND... and   
   they are ACTIVELY CHOOSING to be CRUEL instead.   
      
   I wish you ALL well, INCLUDING those who have HATE only for me.   
      
      
      
      
   --   
   Take care and be well always,   
      
   Mickey Maschke   
   Moderator of The Moon List   
   http://mickeymaschke.741.com/   
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   The mind is like a book, opened and much is learned. Closed and nothing is   
   learned.   
      
   --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05   
    * Origin: you cannot sedate... all the things you hate (1:229/2)