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   From: nonsmoking1@comcast.net   
      
   	Hello my name/handle is Ed Getch/Steady Eddie and I live in Palo   
   Alto California. After being fired from my middle management position at   
   Lockheed/Martin for using my computer for bad things and poor work   
   performance I now work for Brad Lozares as a golf marshall picking up   
   paper cups & hot dog wrappers at the Palo Alto Municipal golf course on   
   Embarcadero Rd. in Palo Alto. You can reach me at 1-650-856-0881 if you'd   
   like.   
      
           I must finally confess and come out of the closet.  It has been a   
   very hard decision on my part to finally do this but the heavy mental load   
   of constant threat of exposure to my family and friends I feel it must   
   stop and I come clean for once.  I am a homosexual man and I have lived a   
   lie my entire life, I enjoy young men and young boys and I really like to   
   submit to there demands. It makes me feel so loved and wanted and fills   
   the void I have in my life.  I have tried drugs to fill the gap but   
   nothing works except the love of very young men which I so much enjoy. But   
   as of late I have found what I think is true love and that would be with:   
      
   Ben Dale Leaman   
   dbcooper3390@yahoo.com   
   jose222@ziplip.com (phony address but uses it in posting)   
   309 West Lemon Street   
   Lancaster, Pa.17603-2917   
   1-717-295-9727   
      
   	We have been lovers off and on for several years when we could   
   get away and be together and it is the best feeling in my life and I must   
   admit to myself and everyone my love for this man. I am a retired person   
   living on my social security and my lover Ben has been most kind and   
   loving to me by helping me with all my emotional problems that I have.   
      
           He must I am sorry to admit sell drugs on the Internet to help   
   support the both of us but we are not the one bit ashamed about it.  But   
   the one thing i am sad about is the dealings Ben does in that I mean he   
   sometimes cuts his drugs with "foreign" substances what they are I have no   
   idea some have even stated rather hatefully that they contained toxic   
   substances.  But I think the problem is that Ben buys his drugs from South   
   America and Serbia which both countries have hard feeling toward   
   Americans, so it might be right that they contain foreign substances.   
      
           I have seen Ben on many occasions "shoot" his drugs in his arm   
   and he would be most horribly sick I would think sometimes he was going to   
   die, heaven forbid should he die I would be lost.  My only true love in   
   this world gone from my loving arms sickens me to the core.  Also I am   
   scared of the "seedy" people he associates with in that I mean the South   
   and Central Americans and the Arabs, some I think just might have   
   connection to terrorist.  He has on occasions left me alone to go pick-up   
   strangers in the middle of the night and give them a place to sleep for a   
   day and then give them money and clothes and papers for some reason and   
   then tell them "Allah is Great" as they leave the house.   
      
           Lately he has been making something out of some kind of bean he   
   calls Castor Beans to make something I don't know what it is for some   
   reason?   
      
           I don't know what to make of all these things and I am so afraid   
   of saying anything to anyone for fear of it getting back to Ben and he   
   starts to beat me more than he usually do.  The spankings are so very   
   erotic and sexual and I truly enjoy them to the fullest, but he has a   
   deep-seated hate and sometimes it reaches the surface and when that   
   happens I'm so afraid and excited at the same time, but he hurts me at   
   times. I know he doesn't mean it but there are times I'm really afraid but   
   he always tells me he is sorry and it will never happen again.   
      
           Please help to find the right decision and help Ben out of his   
   circumstance so we both can have a loving family we so desperately   
   deserve and want.   
      
   --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05   
    * Origin: you cannot sedate... all the things you hate (1:229/2)