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   How colourful Your play of joyous smiles.   
   Now, I realize Thy silent desire to leave.   
   Not in those days of drunken love with You amongst us.   
      
   From the beginning of 1980 to His great departure at the end of 1990 He   
   exhibited an extraordinary superhuman endurance that goes beyond any   
   superlative description. All those eleven years He worked 22 hours a day to   
   supervise the multiple dimensions of    
   Ananda Marga. Also remarkable during that phase was the energy which He   
   secretly transmitted to His secretaries, who worked with Him incredibly long   
   hours daily with little fatigue.   
      
   The reporting sessions during those years demonstrated to us that He was not   
   His physical body but rather the omniscient Baba who knew everything. He   
   proved on hundreds of occasions that His eyes were watching us everywhere.   
      
   Work became paramount to Him. In 1983, Baba was at Mehrauli in Delhi. He   
   casually mentioned there that He could introduce a new type of dance; but He   
   said that He would not, because it would cause His devotees to become less   
   active in social service and    
   to give more importance to cultural pursuits.   
      
   Baba was established in tatra niratishayam sarvajiná biijam (the seed of   
   omniscience in an unexpressed form). The vast amount of knowledge He expounded   
   in Shabda Cayanika (an encyclopedia of selected Bengali words,usually those   
   words which carried more    
   than ten meanings) alone spread over the span of 8,000 pages. In that, too, He   
   related only up to the letter ga, the third consonant of Bengali alphabet. He   
   proved in this series that His knowledge is truly endless. Know the One, and   
   know all. The    
   encyclopedia conveys the charming feeling of a gardener lovingly describing   
   the flowers and herbs in his garden.   
      
   I believe that Baba also thoughtfully planned not to complete Shabda Cayanika.   
   Every Sunday for many months, He gave darshans on different words. He used to   
   ask His devotees, "Shall I continue this letter ga, or shall I go ahead to the   
   next one?"    
   Invariably, they asked Him to continue, because His explanations were so   
   amazing and charming. It seemed that there was no end to His knowledge.   
      
   A few weeks before His great departure Baba asked, "Will I ever be able to   
   complete it?" At that time we had no idea that He would physically depart,   
   but, on later reflection, it seemed He was planning to stop.   
      
   In almost every general darshan He reminded us that we came to this world for   
   a noble cause and not for wasting time. Often He said in Hindi:   
      
   Karte karte maro, marte marte karo.   
   "Work, work and die; and die, die while working."   
      
   During a few of the last DMC's and darshans, as He was getting up to depart,   
   Baba said something like, "My shirt was given by the children of China, My   
   chain is from Taiwan, My shoes from Australia, My vest from Italy, My pen from   
   Germany, My ring from    
   the Philippines, My watch from the USA, My dhoti from Bengal and the walking   
   stick is a gift from the children of Russia; but `I' belong to all of you."   
      
   There was a clear universal and spiritual appeal in His words, and a sad look   
   in His eyes and smile. He seemed reluctant to depart, as His children never   
   wanted Him to leave. Yet He would get up, bid pranam (the salutation between   
   guru and disciple),    
   give blessings and nod gracefully, saying, "Let there be some kin-tam." He   
   would then walk away with majestic steps. Before stepping down the staircase,   
   He would again and again turn and bid pranam as if not wanting to leave.   
      
   I now recognize that in the last phase of His life, Baba gave me indirect   
   hints of His passing away, but either I could not believe or was I not ready   
   for the understanding. Immediately after His release from jail He gave a vanii   
   (spiritual message) on    
   August 3, 1978:   
      
   Unlike other Gurus, He came with no bows, no arrows, no trishula (trident).   
   His all embracing ideology combined with discipline takes the shape of   
   sudarshana cakra[21]. Moral strength is required to materialize His mission.   
   It is desirable that His sons    
   and daughters should acquire the necessary moral strength by strict adherence   
   to the Sixteen Points.   
      
   Then He said, "There are three phases. In the first phase the immoralists   
   tried to destroy Ananda Marga, but it fought against all odds and survived.   
   The second phase has started; in this phase we have to go to the grassroots."   
      
   Then one devotee, Shrii R. Prasad, a Collecter of Indian Central Excise and   
   Customs and a close brother of mine, asked, "Baba when did this second phase   
   start?"   
      
   "On the 2nd of August, 1978," came His reply.   
      
   Then I asked about the third phase. He replied, "I will not say anything about   
   the third phase, lest it affect the progress of the second phase."   
      
   His life was meticulously planned. Even before He started Ananda Marga in   
   1955, He personally initiated about 40 Avadhutas, teaching them the   
   intricacies of esoteric Tantra. He then assigned them to lead unknown lives in   
   different jungles and remote    
   areas. From those places they did intense sadhaná to create a spiritual wave   
   that would positively influence the collective mind of human society.   
      
   In the month of October 1989, while I was in deep meditation, I saw Baba in   
   front of me. He was weak and emaciated. He said, "See, I am very sick and   
   there will be no DMC on the first of January, 1990." I broke into tears. Next   
   day I mentioned this to Ac.   
    Purnajinananda Avt. and Ac. Cidghadananda Avt. I never believed in such   
   visions, thinking them to be the same as dreams, and I dismissed this one   
   also. But in the second week of December 1989   
      
   Baba had a massive heart attack, and He did not hold the New Year DMC.   
      
   One message that Baba gave at that time also worried me. He announced, "Let   
   this be the happiest New Year for you." Rather than make me happy. this   
   sounded ominous to me. I thought, "Sadvipra Samaj is not yet established; the   
   communists are attacking us    
   constantly all over Bengal; Baba is also very, very sick; then how can this be   
   the best New Year?"   
      
   Although by no stretch of the imagination could I imagine what was to come,   
   yet I felt alarmed. I kept. asking my brothers, "Why did Baba give this   
   message?" Only today do I understand that He hid the plan of His passing   
   within it.   
      
   I could never imagine that the third phase would start from October 21, 1990.   
   That was the day of the dissolution of the Mahasambhuti,, of the complex   
   structure or shell that contained the omniscient Baba, the unknown traveller,   
   the Ajana Pathik. He    
   carefully avoided arousing the least trace of suspicion about His forthcoming   
   departure.   
      
   Baba was unpredictable and sometimes playful. After His heart attack, the   
   doctors ordered complete bed rest. But one night Baba asked his second   
   Personal Assistant, Ac. Aks'ayananda Avt. to wrestle with Him. Dada refused,   
   but Baba kept insisting. Finally    
   Baba placed His right foot on the floor and asked Dada to move it. Now Dada is   
   very strong and well-built, but, though he struggled for several minutes, he   
   could not move Baba's foot an inch!   
      
   He never looked for any qualification in a person, insisting that the minimum   
   qualification needed for sádhana is only a human body. Paramahamsa Ramakrishna   
   wanted a guileless, clear heart as the minimum qualification for a sádhaka.   
   Yet Baba said that in    
   near future even some animals will be able to do sádhaná. In His last RU   
   speech. He exhorted us to open training centres for animals and plants which   
   have a developed "I" feeling.   
      
      
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