From: alanb@sonic.net   
      
   in article pagemail-0B7D81.12320409092006@iruka.swcp.com, Crowfoot at   
   pagemail@swcp.com wrote on 9/9/06 11:32 AM:   
      
   >> it is all a projection.   
   >   
   > I guess it could be; how could we tell?   
      
      
   wake up into the dream time crow.   
      
   find your left hand in the dream time, and gain control of what is   
   happening.   
      
   you conscious inside, you conscious outside.   
      
   in waking up, comes the realization that it is all about you.   
      
   or in my case; it is all about me.   
      
   the light show, the things I see, my defense structure made it all up to   
   heal me of my past, my life, my family, my nation, my world and my future if   
   I just let it.   
      
   the more I fight it ... the more it festers and slams the disease of fear   
   right in my face until I learn about living in love.   
      
   the light show is just apparent, and I created it for my own entertainment.   
      
   even the blue and black ... which you have to go through to get to the   
   dreamtime and back here to this place ... that I like to call purgatory as   
   you have to go through your pain to find your happiness here in this system   
   of things.   
      
   as I go through my fear, my pain, my PTSD issues locked into the body armor,   
   and relax all that ... my life, my dreams, my NDEs all become better.   
      
   for want of a better word to discribe it and the change over time.   
      
   I could have stayed with the PTSD issues locked in fear, fear, fear.   
      
   and have the NDEs that I had at the beginning and kept at it through out.   
      
   But I didn't.   
      
   My defense structure created me, just like it did you and everything around   
   you to protect you, help you, heal you, so you don't get hurt, die   
   consciously and unafraid.   
      
   Or kill you in the process.   
      
   Can any one say 'Crickie' and get some accupuncture from God.   
      
   sumbuddie knows wazzup ˆ it out.   
      
   :)   
      
   --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05   
    * Origin: you cannot sedate... all the things you hate (1:229/2)