Story: A Reason To Stay  g7   
      
   by Pedro Vila   
      
      
       Phil Grossman was an honest man.  He also was pretty mild mannered due   
   to conflicts within himself.  Phil noticed since he was a young teenager   
   that he would get excited by pre-teen girls.  By the time he was twenty, he   
   thought of himself as a pervert or sexual deviant.   
      
       He didn't want to be.   
      
       Phil spent long hours studying religion, meditation, and psychology as   
   well as having had private counseling and therapy.   
      
       By the time he turned thirty three, Phil had it licked.  To him, young   
   girls were a beautiful thing to watch and they were adored for their very   
   behavior and innocence.  He hadn't had sexual dreams or thoughts for them   
   for years.  But he always was careful to not forget that he could slip back   
   into his unwanted bad side and always kept himself away from too much   
   temptation.   
      
       Still, one day he met a woman who was so on the same wavelength as he   
   was that they both ended up in love.   
      
       The only problem for him was that she had two toddler girls from a bad   
   marriage.  Phil wasn't attracted to them the wrong way.  If fact, he found   
   them to be wonderfully fun and a source of pure joy.  But he knew they'd   
   end up growing up into bigger girls and part of him was concerned about   
   keeping his nose clean.   
      
       The girls, Kelsi, 4, and Cammi, 2, took to Phil like he was their best   
   friend and father.  The real father was long gone and they never knew him.   
   Phil tried not to let things happen too fast with him and the girls mother,   
   Cinthia.  They both understood they needed to take their time.  Cinthia   
   because of being burned, and Phil because, well....  It took him awhile to   
   open up to her about his problem.   
      
       Cinthia understood his reluctance, but was also impressed with the way   
   he tried to handle it.  He was the perfect man for her and would make a   
   perfect father for her girls.  She was confident he was in total control   
   over himself and she trusted him to tell her if he felt problems.   
      
       It was a few years later that they got married.  They had stayed close   
   and both knew it was meant to be for them.  Phil never had a single fantasy   
   pop into his head.  He was "Daddy" and he loved Kelsi and Cammi almost as   
   much as his wife.  After that, they all had pretty settled in together and   
   it was a dream family for them all.   
      
       Kelsi was seven when Phil got an enormous erection while Kelsi was on   
   his lap as he read to her.  She noticed it right away.  She felt it under   
   her and it had felt like a rock.   
      
       Phil was completely embarrassed and excused himself immediately.  Kelsi   
   followed him with questions and he locked himself in the bathroom while   
   constantly reassuring her she had done nothing wrong.   
      
       Phil and Cinthia talked long into the night and both came to the   
   conclusion that it was a normal reaction to pressure from the child sitting   
   in the right spot.  He wasn't going to turn into a Mr.  Hyde.   
      
       But a few days later, when Cammi had taken off her bathing suit and   
   played naked in her bedroom, Phil watched her for only a moment before he   
   became uncomfortably erect again.  He turned to leave quickly and bumped   
   into Kelsi who was going the other way.  She immediately saw his erection   
   and he became fearful of being seen by her.   
      
       Phil was scared out of his wits and he headed out the door, got in his   
   car, and drove off.   
      
       Cinthia had come home to find the girls alone at the house.   
      
       She became concerned when nobody knew where Phil had gone or why.  She   
   was almost ready to call the police when Kelsi told her about his having   
   another erection and running away.  Cinthia put down the phone.  She knew   
   why he had left.  Kelsi didn't and thought it was related to something she   
   had done before to scare him away.   
      
       Cinthia explained everything to Kelsi.  She was getting to be fairly   
   mature for her age and needed to know she had done nothing wrong.  Kelsi   
   did a lot of thinking right then.  She remembered everything she'd been   
   taught in school about child molesters.  Phil wasn't anything like them,   
   and he had run off rather then hurt her.  Then she said something that made   
   her mother stop and think.   
      
       Kelsi told her that in school, she had been told that child molesters   
   can never be cured.  They would always be that way.   
      
       They waited until dark, hoping he would return.   
      
       Phil called from a hotel instead.  Cinthia got the address from him and   
   took the girls with her to bring him home.   
      
       It was the girls telling him how much they needed him that made him come   
   back to them.  On the ride home, Kelsi insisted on riding with Phil in his   
   car.  He was afraid of being alone with her but they warmed up to their   
   usual selves in no time.  Kelsi told him that she knew he wouldn't every   
   hurt her and that she loved him.   
      
       Cinthia drove in silence and realized how close she had come to losing   
   him.  He was everything to her and the girls.  They had come to depend on   
   him for everything right in the world.  It would be cruel fate to have him   
   taken away when things were perfect.   
      
       Then they were home and Cammi had fallen asleep.  Phil, the daddy,   
   carried her in and tucked her to bed.  He was constantly aware of his own   
   penis the whole time and felt on the edge of another erection.  He tried   
   hard to ignore it and came back out to the living room where Cinthia was   
   waiting for him.   
      
       They both made Kelsi go to her room and get ready for bed while they   
   stayed out in the living room and talked.   
      
       It was a long discussion.  Phil was adamant about going away to prevent   
   his perversions from ruining the family.  For him, it was better that they   
   were alone then for him to touch the girls.   
      
       Gradually, Cinthia understood how strong his sexual desires used to be   
   from his pouring out his feelings and fears.  Phil didn't understand until   
   right then that all of his most intense sexual feelings for little girls   
   had come back two fold.   
      
       He had to leave.   
      
       Cinthia talked him into staying the night since then girls were already   
   in bed, and it wouldn't be right for him to leave without at least saying   
   goodbye to them.  Phil gave in on that.  He could use the comfort of home.   
   His whole world has just shattered apart on him.   
      
       He lay in bed with Cinthia and stared at the ceiling.  She couldn't   
   sleep either and cozied up to him to ease both of their minds.  She got him   
   aroused and they slowly kissed and worked their way together.  Everything   
   was wonderful for a moment but then he lost his erection right in the   
   middle while she was riding him and saw his glance in the direction of the   
   girls room.   
      
       Phil looked in great pain.  Cinthia knew she could lose him forever over   
   this.  Kelsi had told her, they could never be cured.   
      
      
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