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   From: olympiada2007@gmail.com   
      
   CoreyWhite wrote:   
   > My Wacom Drawing Tablet came in the mail today, so I can use it with   
   > Corel Painter X.  It is amazing!  I emailed all of my friends some of   
   > the art work I created with the drawing tablet, and Atalanta, I want   
   > you to tell me what you think.  This Wacom Drawing tablet couldn't be   
   > an better, and it even works as a mouse.   
   >   
   > I also went shopping & picked up some supplies to fix up my backyard.   
   > After doing my yardwork I went out for a chilli dog, and ice cream.   
   > Then I stopped by the grocery store to pick up some fruit, and dark   
   > brown sugar.  When I got home I mixed the whole box of brown sugar   
   > with about half a beer, and cutt up a plum, bannana, and peach for the   
   > mix.  Then I put it all on the stove to boil.  Unfortunately my mother   
   > came home just as the potion was foaming up and overflowing onto the   
   > stove.  So this idea still needs a lot of thinking.   
   >   
   > The nectar is very good.  I tasted it, and it tasted like honey, mixed   
   > with fruit and wine.  I used a turkey baster to cover all of the trees   
   > in my fairy circle with it.. And we will see if I catch any fairies.   
   > Tomorrow I am going to coat the trees again, because it might be a few   
   > days before all the butterflies find the fairy circle.  They already   
   > like to come around.   
   >   
   > There are other ways to attract the fairies and animals into your   
   > yard.  They love, clean accessible spaces.  We have  a little wooden   
   > deck that is just inches off of the ground, and it doesn't have any   
   > railing.  We keep all of our potted plants and flowers out on it.  The   
   > animals love it, and our cats spend all day out in the sun on it.  Our   
   > back yard gets tons of direct sunlight too, which is perfect for a   
   > garden.  Fairies love gardens, and you can research which plants   
   > attract butterflies the most, and which plants other animals like to   
   > eat.  They also love my open fairy circle, of 3 trees, and stones I   
   > laid down in a circle of mulch.  Right now I just let the weeds grow,   
   > but every day the deer, and other animals come to check it out.  Even   
   > the butterflies.   
   >   
      
   Corey... you are not a child anymore and it is time to put away childish   
   things in the words of Saint Paul. Fairies are childish things. I am   
   drawing for twelve olds now, no longer for myself. I appreciate the   
   fairy drawing book you sent me. I don't know how to get you out of this   
   pit you are in. I am in my own pit of despair, wrestling with my own   
   demons, being licked at by my own hell fires. I have been thinking you   
   might want to go visit a monastery and find out what the angelic life is   
   all about. You might wish to speak to batushka. He has been a priest   
   monk for a very long time. I am feeling extremely uncomfortable in my   
   own skin right now. God is trusting me with confidential information,   
   once again, and I am tense. God keeps testing my heart on a deeper and   
   deeper level. I have no clue what he is doing with me. Monks can't marry   
   so what is this all about? I feel like rattling my cage and I do feel   
   like I am in a cage. My heart and my spirit feel trapped tonight and I   
   want to get out and break free. I know what's going on. I need to detach   
   from a situation at hand and I can not and I need H-E-L-P! I wish a   
   knight in shining armor would come into my life and whisk me away on his   
   horse to his castle. But what's it gonna be? Who's it gonna take? When   
   is it gonna be enough. I want the impossible. A castle in the sky. When   
   oh when will I stop wanting such things? It is absolutely and utterly   
   ridiculous. This situation is not good for me at all and yet I am in it   
   and I am indeed stuck.   
   Olympiada   
      
   --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05   
    * Origin: you cannot sedate... all the things you hate (1:229/2)