From: dicksilk@gmail.com   
      
   May the 4th be with you :-)  (Star Wars Day) :-)   
      
   Mark:31 AM 5/4/2021 This is being written up at 31 minutes after the hour on   
   5/5, but is FOR the dreams of the morning of 5/4, so the only point in keeping   
   track of the minutes in this post is to indicate the time spent typing, not   
   that it really matters    
   that much, but to continue....   
      
   The dreamer was hanging on to the *outside* front of a bus, the kind with a   
   mostly "flat" front, but for some reason, there was the *sense* of a "ledge"   
   such that an external rider could *hang onto* a handle bolted (welded,   
   perhaps?) to the outside skin (   
   right front) of the bus.  The dreamer was NOT using the hand hold, but someone   
   suggested that it should be done (at least for safety) so the dreamer used (I   
   *think*) the left hand in order to hold onto that handle.  This lasted only a   
   moment, as then the    
   next scene involved being *inside* either the bus OR a room, and one of the   
   persons *in* that room was Carolyn M., looking about 18 to 20 years of age   
   (she's likely 60 OR 61 this year!) who was my *first* crush as a very young   
   kid (that I can remember.)     
   There is one of those heart-emotional feelings (empathy, perhaps?) but that   
   was likely the end of the dream.  Clarity 6+, maybe.  Sure, the bus and   
   handhold *could* be symbolism, or *perhaps* a mental construct, but other than   
   expressing my feelings *   
   from the past* for Carolyn, I really am unable to find much other meaning or   
   sense within the dream, *unless* **perhaps** it was akin to the thumbing of a   
   gong, getting me prepared with respect to an upcoming dream that *might* make   
   more sense?  Pure    
   speculation here.  At any rate:   
      
   X:39 AM In a *large* area room, perhaps 20'x20'?  maybe more?  open floor, as   
   if meant *for* dining, possibly as a den / kitchen area, such that   
   recreational activities might be possible.  I remember the floor being of a   
   light white & tan pattern,    
   certainly "earth toned," such that IF someone from Arizona or the   
   mid-south-west were to track outside dirt on it, such would be more difficult   
   to immediately spot.  There were two rooms "further back" (to the left?)   
   presumably for adult sleepers (   
   parents? adult teens?) And there seemed to be a kind of squeeze-trigger-bottle   
   spray for insect / bug control.  Clarity 8+-ish.   
      
   X:44 AM Note that I am typing this up from hand-scratched notes I took this   
   morning, after waking, rather than doing Sudoku puzzles while on the john.    
   I'm *slightly* impressed that some of these details are noted, whereas I only   
   *barely* remember them    
   FROM reading the notes!   
      
   *Something* about a guy with possible vision issue, and the dreamer offering   
   him *my* reading glasses to possibly assist.  He seemed very pleased with the   
   result :-)   
      
   *Something* about a guy *straight punching me* in the *face!*  Never been   
   punched in the nose (in real life)— at least, not that I can consciously   
   recall!  So this guy punching me in the face IN A DREAM was really interesting   
   as well!  I felt the    
   impact, but little pain to speak of.  It was almost as if being punched by a   
   shadow person, very little light outlining his features.  Clarity 4, but the   
   impact was clarity 9+! :-)   
      
   X:50 AM Sideways motion of vehicle:  the dreamer was *inside* a car, which was   
   moving neither "forward" NOR "backward" but *sideways*, as if pushed from the   
   right, sliding left.  There was a feeling as if the car had collided with   
   something to its left    
   as well, such as another car body.  Dream ended, clarity 7-.   
      
   There's this person / figure who reminds me of a classic clown in the middle   
   of an area, sort of like a rodeo clown, in the center of a demolition derby   
   (possibly having something to do with the sideways moving car!) only there was   
   some kind of spray (   
   like the bug spray mentioned earlier) in a bottle, only this spray was a type   
   of acid, meant to dissolve the clown, but *why* is unclear.  It's also unclear   
   as to whether or not any actual harm ever came to the clown, but it was *as   
   if* it was *customary*   
    to spray the clown with acid.  Unsettling, for sure.  Clarity 8-.   
      
   X:54 One *or two* people using an "older" computer system (larger CRT monitor,   
   NOT a flat screen!) in the "educational wing" of Grace Lutheran Church, near   
   where the original kitchen is located, but along the north wall (that runs   
   west-east) (the kitchen    
   is along the southern wall) and the dreamer seems to be finding something near   
   the "back door" (easternmost side door exit of the building) where the dreamer   
   notices a few things:  1, that there's a young gal there in a white dress with   
   earth-toned    
   floral patterns (this scene was likely from my late teens / early 20s) who has   
   my interest (*possibly* Melissa Bellantoni) as a crush (she and Carolyn were   
   my first *2* crushes) then 2, there was this guy there, Jim K., who had his   
   right hand on this    
   other (?) gal's back left side, possibly her left shoulder, as if to "connect"   
   with her, but the dreamer was *clearly* wondering, "I wonder what your wife   
   would think of that, James?" (although this was an internal thought, rather   
   than something JK could    
   actually hear) and 3) perhaps most interestingly, the dreamer was naked.    
   Although "I" did not "look" at my body, "I" felt like a naked *male* rather   
   than a female.  The interesting thing about this is that for whatever reason,   
   no one had seemed to    
   notice this during the time during which the scene had been going on (which   
   had a sense of at least 5 minutes' in that time scape, but perhaps 5 seconds   
   relative to "our reality") no one had seemed concerned enough to remark or   
   otherwise point out that    
   the dreamer was stark naked!  And yet "I" had the feeling that, sure, this   
   could possibly get past at the "youth group level," but would NEVER be   
   something deemed "acceptible" at the adult level inside the narthex / during a   
   regular service.  Clarity 8-,    
   but the fact that the dreamer was "naked" was more like 9.  There's also a   
   note jotted down about some type of message on the screen saver of the   
   computer(s) in question:  it was a black screen with white text, and the   
   dreamer offered a suggestion (   
   possibly instruction?) as to how to effectively change the text of the   
   message.  The last bit was the filling up of shopping sacks, the kind of   
   plastic bags one gets at a grocery store (or used to, if one is not along a   
   coastal state) with newspapers,    
   akin to the method of using an inverted bag in order to grab its bottom center   
   to the bottom center of an object, then peel the bag upwards (kinda like   
   putting a pillow in a pillow case.)   
      
   X+1:08   
      
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    * Origin: you cannot sedate... all the things you hate (1:229/2)