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   From: HaShem@comcast.net   
      
   To kill myself. Or to be saved from it....   
      
   Did I kill the both of us....?   
      
   Did my devil & Satan decieve me into the suicide of George...   
      
      
      
   I plead my case.....   
      
      
   1978   
   I was a drinking transexual/transvestite. Straight Vodka.   
   Seeing a psyciatrist. He recommeded gay bars.   
      
   Okay doc. Anything you say....   
      
   I linked up with a gay guy   
      
   I'm finished with this draft. I'm tired. Going  to couch....   
   Anybody interested in this stuff? It concerns crop circles..   
      
   We became friends with a gay guy, Ted, who moved in on   
   the same floor.   
      
   He told me he was going to tell me once, just once to never, let him   
   know where a gun was, at the time of his mothers death.   
      
   She never liked me. She turned out to be a sweatheart...   
      
   He demanded I promise. I told him I've always owned guns.   
      
   For years we lived in the same building. Across the hall.He had the keys to   
   my   
   place and my dog "Blossom". A six month old Shepeared/Collie mix....   
   Which he picked from a street sign. Constantly over my apartment.   
   He took care of Blossom as I was at work 3 to 11. He 9 to 5.....   
      
   He went nuts looking for headstone when she died. And she was   
   creamated. Just keep her on the mantle. Why put yourself through   
   this. Never told him that. It's what he desperately wanted to do...   
      
   --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05   
    * Origin: you cannot sedate... all the things you hate (1:229/2)