From: mthrbomb@yahoo.com   
      
   On Wednesday, February 7, 2024 at 6:08:37 PM UTC-8, Cowman wrote:   
   > On 2/7/24 17:42, Babyshoes Loveachother wrote:    
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   > > You know how when you close your eyes it's like dark .especially when   
   you're going to sleep ..open eyes like day, closed eyes like night? Some times   
   you see little stars, or maybe their brain cell's twinkling, but mostly you   
   see darkness, a gray and    
   murky place, a quiet place, a quiet space. A place where you can be still, and   
   in trying to be still, you can see your thoughts both the mundane thoughts,   
   the encouraging spiritual thoughts, prayer, a confessional, a closet, a cave   
   of treasures, and also    
   the valley of the the shadow of death.. where you fear no evil for God is with   
   you ..and any that call on the name of the lord there. I believe this is the   
   place you pass before you go to your eternal abode, heaven, or hell..    
   > > A few of my experiences with this place..    
   > > The negative.. I always saw, sometimes shadowy things inside of there. I   
   couldn't make them out, maybe a ghostly face would appear and fade, one time   
   when I was at an eye specialist, and they gave me eyedrops to dilate the eyes   
   to see close up, as I    
   got home I decided to take a nap, and when I closed my eyes and prayed, like I   
   usually do before I sleep, I saw very plainly a lot of ghostly figures that   
   look very unhappy... and I know this really was the shadow of death, a place   
   where most will pass    
   through..    
   > >    
   > > The positive.. when I'm there in that closet, after a while, I start to   
   see swirls of color and light. I'm so glad to see it, like a real communion...   
   a private place... a few times I saw an opening at the very top, once a very   
   bright light, another    
   time a beautiful blue sky.. just for a moment, and a very partial opening..   
   now I'm coming to believe that it's a kind of born again experience, like a   
   womb, you give birth at one end, but you're birthed at the other end.. an   
   entrance into the kingdom of    
   God. This is not the only entrance of corse ..like they say, there are 12   
   gates , like there are other books opened, and as like having a C-section,   
   sometimes you're taken .. but it is a way.. I've prayed like this for years   
   and years, intreating the    
   lord...it took time before I saw the light, maybe with others it's sooner. The   
   Catholic religion imitates everything and the confessional is one of them.   
   When you go into their confessional, a place where you close a curtain or door   
   and the priest slides    
   open a little window where you communicate..and say bless me father for I have   
   sinned ..and he gives you penance, (voluntary atonement) I found a lot of   
   things in the Catholic Church that they imitate, after I found it on my own.   
   They carried this    
   strange knowledge w for thousands of years, And used it the same as the wicked   
   scribes and Pharisees and it was not really understandable to most, but only   
   to a few, like their Communion when they lift the round host up over their   
   heads with their back    
   to you ( which they don't do anymore because of complaints, but it does mean   
   more the first way) there are so many mysteries hidden in so many places,   
   secrets, Jesus said pearls are not for every one and Jesus even confounded   
   some people but Jesus also    
   said he would make things plain one day. Which is a blessing, especially when   
   it's the end of the world or the end of your life.    
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   > I never imagine shadow of death on that epic way.    
   > When I close my eyes I see at first moment exactly the same picture of    
   > reality when my eyes was opened.    
   >    
   > That picture move through consciousness couple seconds and change into    
   > dark, blind mind with halucinating creatures.    
   > Sometime that "terminal" was white light pixelise sometime pixels move    
   > around and create strange bodies and shapes of my own mind depending how    
   > I'm happy or angry was.    
   > I never,ever imagine that like death shadow.    
   > Shadow of death for me is sicknes,body pain of every nerve before exodus    
   > comes and heart stoping to push blood.    
   > For me thats medical condition of body out of my control connected with    
   > hospitals,wrong pills,error therapy and siner doctors.   
      
   closing your eyes right away is reality but you still see darkness I think you   
   mean staying in the present time which is a good thing as that's where the   
   holy spirit dwells..always wondered about when people die with their eyes   
   opened. If there is a    
   difference...    
      
   > >> Sometime that "terminal" was white light pixelise sometime pixels move    
   > around and create strange bodies and shapes of my own mind depending how    
   > I'm happy or angry was. >   
       
   > > I know for sure (not pixels) because it comes when I'm silently praying   
   and not right away, it's different for everybody. God knows each soul, but   
   rather than going in a real dark closet, if you can find one available (which   
   could work) closing your    
   eyes makes more sense to me,  I am rewarded with a presence, of peace, comfort   
   and love.  And as strange as this might sound It makes sense to me that   
   without calling on/to the lord, other things can be in that darkness, of a   
   nefarious nature, (thoughts    
   and words) can manifest themselves) So I go to that place, foreshadowing what   
   daily bread is coming, waiting on the lord.   
      
   --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05   
    * Origin: you cannot sedate... all the things you hate (1:229/2)