From: denisesharpe15@yahoo.com   
      
   This happened in the beginning of '93 but it gets much worse after that.   
      
      
   In 1992 ELP reformed and their new album was called Black Moon. But what do   
   they have to do with the The Division Bell? (Keep reading) Of course I was   
   curious what new music my old friend, of whom I had loved for years, was   
   doing, so I bought the    
   cassette.   
   One song on the album "Black Moon" is called " Affairs of the Heart" (after   
   reading my story go listen to it, but don't buy it.) While listening to it I   
   kept thinking What? Even saying it out loud "what the hell". It was our story,   
   Carl's and mine.. The    
   song's lyrics tell of the chandelier, how I was alone beneath it and twirling   
   around, how I looked at him across the room and actual words he said to me in   
   private, that I had fox eyes "her eyes were cunning like a fox" he said I had   
   green eyes, "eyes of    
   jade" but they're not, and I told him they were blue.. Even the sound of a   
   door closing twice can be heard. I left and came back to get my scarf. The   
   song starts by telling how we met and it ends telling how I left. But the   
   reason I left, the lyrics tell    
   a different story. An innocent masquade, it was not. I explained that part in   
   the 1973 section...too creepy to repeat. So I was left wondering why, why now?   
   Where had he been for 20 years "Affairs of the Heart" was written by Greg Lake   
   also Geoff Downes    
   from Asia, then I made the connection and remembered listening to the concert   
   Asia in Asia on the radio, and thinking how all those song lyrics sounded so   
   familiar. But there was one exception, that threw me off. I was not in "a   
   faded video" lyrics from    
   the song "Eye to Eye". We saw eye to eye when we talked because we are the   
   same height 5'8".   
   It was all too much for me. Before this I would never have dreamed that a song   
   would be for me or about me. It would be sacriligeous for me to do so. I   
   respected musicians way too much to think that I'd ever have a song about me.   
   Song lyrics came from    
   magic and the musicians' love lives. But this was too coincidental. Especially   
   mentioning the chandelier that was in our secret conversation. I had no choice   
   but to believe. There were way too many coincidences. So I believed that Carl   
   loved me and    
   wanted me back after 20 years.    
   I heard that WCSX Classic Rock radio station was putting on a Rock Swap   
   Memorablia show where fans could buy, sell or trade LP's, souvenirs, concert   
   t-shirts, bootleg recordings and more. There I purchased a bootleg VHS of the   
   ELP Manticore film, which I    
   had never heard of. The seller informed me that it had all kinds of behind the   
   scenes with ELP. I immediately thought I hope I'm not in it. I watched it. I   
   am in it. In 1972 we all went to Marios Restaurant in Detroit. I did see a guy   
   with a movie camera    
   and I covered my face when I saw it and that part is in the film too. Then, a   
   guy with the show, who was sitting next to me, told me to go sit next to Carl,   
   who had been in the bathroom for quite a while.   
   But when I wasn't looking and Carl turned to me closely and asked me about the   
   salad dressing, the camera was rolling. That was the only time during that   
   entire dinner that he seemed interested and it took me by surprise..After he   
   turned away, I was    
   still looking at him, thinking what was that all about. He was a great actor   
   and I was unknowingly used to make a scene look like something it really   
   wasn't. When I finally saw it in '93, I thought it was cool that he put me in   
   that video and really did    
   love me. But there is one thing he said to me during that dinner that still   
   stands out in my mind. In a sarcastic tone he said "Why do you know so much" I   
   didn't reply. I believe I've known too much for many years, but what is it   
   that I know? This    
   Manticore film was shown all across the UK on the Old Grey Whistle Test: ELP   
   on Tour broadcast on December 26, 1973 BBC/Manticore Films and I had no idea I   
   was in it until I saw it 1993.   
   I started writing to Carl telling him all sorts of things..I mentioned the Fox   
   Theatre in Detroit having the largest chandelier. I wrote reminding him about   
   the chandelier at the Eastown theatre, where we met and how it was our secret   
   dream. We talked    
   about it during my one dreamy night with him.. Although he tried to tell me it   
   was a glitterball but I said no, that it was a chandelier. I think there were   
   both of them there, but in different areas.   
   Then I had heard it on the radio that ELP were coming to the Fox theater..they   
   had never played there before. So I figured it was a sign, for me to go   
   there..I thought that all I needed to do was give my first name at the door   
   just like I had done so    
   many times before..I was so excited to see my old friend who I still loved all   
   those years! And there was a song about us and I was in the ELP film with him!   
   I was so excited to see him play again. I loved his drumming too!    
   So I got into the security guard room and asked them if they would give Carl   
   my name. After a while a door opened and the security guard was at the door   
   and was talking to someone and then the security guard turned to me and asked   
   me my last name. So    
   Carl was on the other side of the door wanting to know my last name? what?   
   something didn't seem right. So I said my last name and then the security   
   guard told him, but then the guard looked at me really sad and said "No". Why   
   wouldn't Carl even look    
   around the door for a second. Why was he doing this? Then I asked a roadie a   
   question and he got angry and said "hey lady" and then I asked him again and   
   he kept saying "listen lady listen" I thought listen to what?    
   I was so heartbroken. I left and it was very dark outside and freezing cold. I   
   got into my old rusted out car in the middle of a run down section of downtown   
   Detroit. I had to figure out how to get back home because I was lost   
   emotionally and barely knew    
   where I was. I wasn't welcomed back anymore and I wasn't a friend anymore..but   
   there had to be some mistake.   
   When I got home, I realized that I gave my marrried name instead of my maiden   
   name, Carl knew my maiden name. I was crying and wanted to go back and give my   
   maiden name, then he'd know me. But I was also still angry about that roadie   
   who kept calling me "   
   lady" and saying "listen lady listen", when I was very nice when talking to   
   him. I figured there had to be some mistake. Carl wouldn't intentionally do   
   this, why would he? why wouldn't he just look around the opened door? It was   
   such an easy thing to do.    
   Why be so cruel?    
      
      
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