From: denisesharpe15@yahoo.com   
      
   Last bit about 1993...Then onto 1994!!!,   
      
   In the video for "Fields of Gold" the in the studio version, you first see a   
   tree outside the window and Sting looking out the window at the tree, then he   
   starts to sing. I thought about the tree and a songbird that sings. No one I   
   knew could make that    
   connection because with every step I took I was buying into it all and   
   following the clues like climbing a stairway. Once again my head was humming   
   and it wouldn't go and the piper was calling again. Feeling that I had no   
   where to turn made me sink much    
   deeper. Then I started questioning my own sanity, "maybe I am going crazy". I   
   mean after all it's just a tree...and a hedge, someone telling me listen lady   
   listen, I wanted to be sure, I was buying the music, when the doors were   
   closed with my name I    
   could get what I came for and it all made me wonder. It was all there,, all   
   the steps. By themselves each step was an innocent thing, but I could put them   
   together and I felt isolated from everything. Why did I keep following then?   
   It was irresistable.    
   It glittered, so it must be gold, Fields of Gold. But why were they doing this   
   to my mind? Is it because I know too much?    
      
   I started to wonder what Sting had to with it all. Then I remembered my first   
   words to Carl were goo goo do do da da. I didn't say anything to him at first   
   and he asked if I talked. So I said that. I figured that talking baby talk was   
   still considered    
   talking.    
      
   Then I thought about "Every Breath You Take" and the chandelier at the   
   end...once again a normal thing, but to me it added to everything only I knew.   
   I felt like I was being stalked and it made me somewhat paranoid adding to my   
   emotional stress.   
      
   I don't think it's a coincidence that about 10 years after ELP released "C'est   
   la vie", Sting released "Fragile" which has the same melody and just a   
   slightly faster tempo, but different lyrics   
      
   I  knew I really wasn't going crazy, but I kept questioning my thinking. I was   
   able to be strong minded enough to know that if I told a doctor what was going   
   on, I'd be put in the hospital and medicated..and that would have been much   
   worse! I made it    
   through some awful emotional distress, but I still needed the truth badly. I   
   was tired of not knowing everything and I kept praying for someone to tell me   
   something. No one I could talk to could tell me anything. Little did I know   
   that help was being    
   written, as I prayed. I would be saved in a few more months.   
      
   I didn't even list all the weird things that happened  because mentioning them   
   all makes me sound crazy and that's what they wanted. I'm proud of myself for   
   getting through the very worse part. Next, onto 1994 and a couple more head   
   games......but   
      
   Then I hear "I took a heavenly ride through our silence, I knew the moment had   
   arrived for Killing the Past and Coming Back to Life" !!!!   
      
   YAY writing about 1993 is over!!    
      
   --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05   
    * Origin: you cannot sedate... all the things you hate (1:229/2)