From: denisesharpe15@yahoo.com   
      
   1993 Part 3 (rewrote)   
      
   In the video for "Fields of Gold" in the studio version, you first see a tree   
   outside the window and Sting looking out the window at the tree, then he   
   starts to sing. I thought about the tree and a songbird that sings. No one I   
   knew could make that    
   connection because with every step I took I was buying into it all and   
   following the clues like climbing a stairway. Once again my head was humming   
   and it wouldn't go and the piper was calling again. Feeling that I had no   
   where to turn made me sink much    
   deeper. Then I started questioning my own sanity, "maybe I am going crazy". I   
   mean after all it's just a tree...and a hedgerow,someone telling me listen   
   lady listen, I wanted to be sure, I was buying the music, when the doors were   
   closed with my name I    
   would get what I came for and it all made me wonder. It was all there,, all   
   the steps. By themselves each step was an innocent thing, but I could put them   
   together and I felt isolated from everything. Why did I keep following then?   
   It was irresistable.    
   It glittered, so it must be gold, Fields of Gold. But why were they doing this   
   to my mind? Is it because I know too much?   
      
   When recalling the lyrics to Stairway, on this crazy pastime, I was not   
   listening to the albums or Robert Plant's voice over and over. I already knew   
   the lyrics to Stairway from memory. And I would never ever think he would have   
   anything to do with what    
   was happening. It's not his fault he wrote the lyrics that someone else used.    
   When meeting Led Zeppelin in 72 we were introduced by a mutual friend. Robert   
   walked up to me like I was somebody important and he looked into my face and I   
   felt him enter my    
   spirit for a few seconds. He was so tall and his angelic hair surrounded his   
   beautiful face. I think I said Hi..and he said hello. I was in a daze and I   
   don't remember what happened after that..my girlfriend and I went home..But to   
   this day I will never    
   forget mingling spirits with a beautiful soul. The most beautiful and soulful   
   man in all of music. (I was going to write this part in the 71 - 73 section,   
   but I will write about it again)   
      
   I started to wonder what Sting had to with it all. Then I remembered my first   
   words to Carl were goo goo do do da da. I didn't say anything to him at first   
   and he asked if I talked. So I said that. I figured that talking baby talk was   
   still considered    
   talking.    
   Then I thought about "Every Breath You Take" and the chandelier at the   
   end...once again a normal thing, but to me it added to everything only I knew.   
   I felt like I was being stalked and it made me somewhat paranoid adding to my   
   emotional stress.   
   I don't think it's a coincidence that about 10 years after ELP released "C'est   
   la vie", Sting released "Fragile" which has the same melody and just a   
   slightly faster tempo, but different lyrics   
   I knew I wasn't going crazy, but I kept questioning my thinking. I was able to   
   be strong minded enough to know that if I told a doctor what was going on, I'd   
   be put in the hospital and medicated..and that would have been much worse. I   
   got through some    
   horrible emotional distress, but I still needed the truth badly. I was tired   
   of not knowing everything and I kept praying for someone to tell me something.   
   No one I could talk to could tell me anything. Little did I know that help was   
   being written, as I    
   prayed. I would be saved in a few more months.   
   I didn't even list all the weird things, because mentioning them all makes me   
   sound crazy and that's what they wanted. I'm proud of myself for getting   
   through the very worse part. Next, onto 1994 and a couple more head   
   games......but    
   Then I hear "I took a heavenly ride through our silence, I knew the moment had   
   arrived for Killing the Past and   
      
   --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05   
    * Origin: you cannot sedate... all the things you hate (1:229/2)