From: denisesharpe15@yahoo.com   
      
   Part 2   
   I continued to pray for someone who could tell me what was happening. There   
   still was no one I could call or write to for answers. I wondered if any other   
   musicians knew what was going on.   
      
   Then in April I heard about the new Pink Floyd album. I had always loved Pink   
   Floyd and could recall the concerts in the early 70's. I think I loved   
   "Meddle" the most. I remembered how Gilmour said "No" to me when I offered him   
   a joint when I was playing    
   roadie for a night and helping out Chris Adamson.   
      
   The new album, called The Division Bell, was named after the bell in the U.K.   
   that is rung in and around Parliament when there is a division. It is a call   
   for members to come to vote aye or nay on a resolution. When talking about the   
   " Division Bell",    
   David Gilmour said "It's a division bell, it divides the yeses from the   
   noes."    
      
   Looking at the CD cover art for the first time, I saw the two steel heads   
   staring into each other's eyes with open mouths, as if having a conversation.   
   I had an immediate thought of what it could mean to me, but I brushed it off.   
   I looked at the song    
   titles and saw "Coming Back to Life" and knew that was what I wanted to hear   
   first.    
   I laid down on the carpet with a knowing that this music would help me. It was   
   too amazing to be a coincidence. My spirit was drawn into a healing light and   
   then a whole new realm, a place I'd never been even in my imagination and it   
   was bringing me back    
   from everything that had taken me away from life. Where was Carl when I was   
   burned and broken while the days slipped by from my window watching. Where was   
   he when I was hurt and I was helpless because the things he said and the   
   things he did surrounded    
   me. I took a heavenly ride through our silence, but I knew the moment had   
   begun and I headed straight into the shining sun. That previous year I was   
   lost in thought and lost in time. And outside the rain fell dark and slow   
   while I had pondered on a    
   dangerous but irresistable pastime. When the song was over, I knew the moment   
   had arrived and I killed the past and I came back to life. Not only did the   
   lyrics heal me, but throughout the song Gilmour's guitar sounds were pulling   
   me up to listen and    
   guiding me towards the light of truth.   
      
   Healing music with healing words was what I needed, not some pills from a   
   doctor. But, how did Pink Floyd know about me and what I was going through?   
   Did Gilmour get my letters somehow?    
      
   "Wearing the Inside Out" co-written and sung by Rick Wright, speaks on my   
   behalf about my emotional distress and depression so accurately, that I could   
   barely listen to it. "No more than alive, I barely survived" I wrote in my   
   letters that I felt like my    
   guts were on the outside of my body because I felt physical pain too. "Didn't   
   recognize I'd become" Seeing my face in the mirror scared me because I thought   
   "who is that", I looked horrid. Ricks lyrics "I don't even hear when I think   
   aloud" reminded me    
   of the Asia song "The Heat goes on" where I'm described as "thinking aloud".   
   Of all the Pink Floyd members, it was Rick who I spoke to the most. I really   
   do think out loud a lot, maybe he even noticed. I was so sorry to hear about   
   his passing. He was a    
   very sweet and gentle man. I'm so grateful to him for expressing my feelings   
   so well. There is so much pain behind that song more than anyone will ever   
   know. I'm the only one who really knows. The album would not be complete   
   without this song. "I'm    
   creeping back to life my nervous system all awry I'm wearing the inside out"    
      
   Listening to the whole album, it was incredible how Gilmour seemed to have   
   read my mind. The lyrics are the communication back and forth from one person   
   to the other. In "Keep Talking" the women back up singers asking" why won't   
   you talk to me?" "You    
   never talk to me?" "What are you thinking?" " What are you feeling?". All the   
   things I asked my old friend Carl. Then, Gilmour who represents Carl, sings   
   with a very drab uncaring attitude "I can't seem to think straight" I'll sit   
   in the corner where no    
   one will bother me" "I'm feeling weak now, but I can't show my weakness". Its   
   actually funny writing about those lyrics now. So, Gilmour was showing me that   
   I was begging for a reply from a loser who can't think straight. It would take   
   another famous    
   musician who actually knew him well enough to tell me the truth about him. So,   
   take his shirt off, macho drummer, Carl Palmer can't seem to think straight?   
   Why? Because he's not. So all the emotional distress and head games were to   
   erase what I knew? I    
   took something of his with me when I walked out the door years ago, but I   
   didn't know it was his secret. " There'll be no safety in numbers when the   
   right one walks out of the door". And people wonder why Pink Floyd can't say   
   anything about the Enigma or    
   the album. It's obvious to me.   
      
   While looking at the album cover with the two steel heads on it I showed it to   
   my 15 year old son, who basically knew what I was going through. He pointed to   
   the field and said "and there's the Field of Gold". My son has always been   
   very intelligent, so    
   I believed him immediately. Then I saw what could be considered a castle in   
   between the mouths. Sting lived and recorded the song in his castle and said   
   that "Fields of Gold" was about other people. The castle in between the open   
   mouths represents the    
   communication in the lyrics from one person to another, but it was all a lie,   
   just a part of the heavily ride. Although I have not seen the actual poster,   
   many in the Pink Floyd newsgroup have said that the larger sized Division Bell   
   posters has the name    
   Eric D A Sharpe printed in the field. My sons name isn't Eric, but his first   
   and middle initials are D A and his last name is Sharpe.   
      
   But how did Pink Floyd know about me and what was in my letters? Nick Mason   
   said that they had 40 pieces of material to work with for the album. That's   
   about how many letters I wrote to Carl. In them I mentioned meeting Pink Floyd   
   and how I believed in    
   David Gilmour back in the 70's. Maybe Carl tried to use "the piper's calling   
   you to join him" step from "Stairway" and the "Dark Side of the Moon" concept   
   of mental illness to push me even further. But, instead of helping Carl like   
   Jon Anderson and Sting    
   did, Pink Floyd helped me by telling me the truth.   
      
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