From: denisesharpe15@yahoo.com   
      
   Here's some of 1994 Part 3. Still working on it ..   
      
   But it would turn out that Shine on you Crazy Diamond, a song for Syd Barrett,   
   would help me almost more than "Coming Back to Life". During the concert   
   having David Gilmour singing SOYCD right in front me, tears streamed down my   
   face and I struggled to    
   stop crying. He was like an old friend telling me "Remember when you were   
   young? You shone like the sun" Come on you stranger, you legend you martyr and   
   shine". And then the lyrics "well you wore out your welcome with random   
   precision" . It was true that    
   I wasn't a welcomed back friend to Carl anymore. The old lyrics for Syd meant   
   more for me that night. Even David Gilmour said that the old songs mean even   
   more today. So instead of the piper calling me to join him, the piper joined   
   me during a memorable    
   concert where even his spirit helped me to shine on.    
      
   Years ago I had read about Roger Keith "Syd" Barrett and how he was a magical   
   soul and had a childlike heart and with his lyric writing too. I connected   
   with that so much. Its difficult for a soul to function in a world that   
   doesn't understand you, so    
   you try to escape it because it hurts too much to live in it and you can't   
   handle rejection. " I don't think I'm easy to talk about," Barrett confessed   
   to Rolling Stone in 1971, "I've got a very irregular head. And I'm not   
   anything that you think I am    
   anyway." Maybe I have a magic soul too. So, it's like the spirit of Syd helped   
   me. I don't care if people call me crazy, I'm not anything they think I am   
   anyways.   
      
   David Gilmour was my hero, he saved me and I couldn't help but care for him   
   deeply and I always will. Even though my spirit was lifted and my mind was   
   healed, I had to realize that it was all true that Carl was hurting me on   
   purpose.. I had to face the    
   fact that all those years of being proud to have known him had gone to waste.   
   I felt I lost someone I couldn't replace. Aside from the love wasted, I had to   
   try and let go of being a fan of his drumming too.    
      
   Late October 1995, the Smashing Pumpkins Mellon Collie and the Infinite   
   sadness album was in stores I didn't know much about them because I wasn't   
   keeping up with new music trends. Posters of the album with the woman in a   
   star were all over inside the    
   record store. I was shopping at the mall and I saw the poster of a half woman   
   half star and to me her eyes showed she was in pain..they reminded me of the   
   eyes of suffering saints on Catholic Holy Cards as they looked up to Heaven. I   
   had pain too, I was    
   stuck because people didn't believe my story about rock stars and looking at   
   the picture was scary in a way, it was like looking at my own pain.   
      
   Pink Floyd were inducted into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame in 1996 by Billy   
   Corgan of the Smashing Pumpkins. Billy played guitar with them on the song   
   "Wish you were here".   
   I started thinking about their connection and after seeing the video for   
   "Tonight Tonight" I just had to BELIEVE that I wasn't stuck in vain. All my   
   writings here are the indescribable moments of my life. I'll crucify the   
   insincere tonight... I'll find a    
   way to offer up the night." The impossible is Possible Tonight" Believe in me   
   as I believe in you.    
      
   --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05   
    * Origin: you cannot sedate... all the things you hate (1:229/2)