From: denisesharpe15@yahoo.com   
      
   Part 3   
      
   I heard the intro of Coming Back to Life and I put on the t shirt that I made,   
   over my top. I stood up during the song, proudly displaying the huge sun on   
   the front and the DSOTM Pulse rainbow at the bottom. I was cheering for the   
   song, and how it    
   brought me back to life. I didn't care about looking silly, this was my life I   
   was cheering for and I wanted to show David and the band that I made it   
   through with their help. It was very important for me to do this. The rest of   
   the crowd was going crazy    
   screaming and yelling too, so I really didn't stand out too much. I remember   
   how David was looking at the Dark Side Pulse rainbow at the bottom of my   
   t-shirt. Now I'm wondering if it could have been inspiration for the title of   
   the "Pulse" album that    
   came out the next year.   
      
   But it would turn out that Shine on you crazy diamond, a song for Syd Barrett,   
   would help me almost more than "Coming Back to Life". During the concert   
   having David Gilmour singing SOYCD right in front me, tears streamed down my   
   face and I struggled to    
   stop crying. He was like an old friend telling me "Remember when you were   
   young? You shone like the sun" Come on you stranger, you legend you martyr and   
   shine". And then the lyrics "well you wore out your welcome with random   
   precision". It was true that    
   I wasn't a welcomed back friend to Carl anymore. The old lyrics for Syd meant   
   more for me that night. Even David Gilmour said that the old songs mean even   
   more today. So instead of the piper calling me to join him, the piper joined   
   me there during a    
   memorable concert where even his spirit helped me to shine on.   
      
   Years ago I had read about Roger Keith "Syd" Barrett and how he was a magical   
   soul and had a childlike heart and with his lyric writing too. I connected   
   with that so much. Its difficult for a soul to function in a world that   
   doesn't understand you, so    
   you try to escape it because it hurts too much to live in it and you can't   
   handle rejection. " I don't think I'm easy to talk about," Barrett confessed   
   to Rolling Stone in 1971, "I've got a very irregular head. And I'm not   
   anything that you think I am    
   anyway." Maybe I have a magic soul too. So, it's like the spirit of Syd helped   
   me and I don't care if people call me crazy, I'm not anything they think I am   
   anyways.   
      
   Back to the concert...   
      
   I heard the sounds of the heartbeat and the clocks ticking..it was "Speak to   
   Me" and that familiar voice from the Dark Side of the Moon album "I've always   
   been mad, I know I've been mad like the most of us have. Very hard to explain   
   why you're mad, even    
   if you're not mad" I thought "Wow Pink Floyd is playing DSOTM and I'm in front   
   row in front of Gilmour". Then I realized that the song "Breathe (In the air)"   
   was next and it was my chance to do something I'd always wanted to do. Back in   
   the 70's whenever    
   I'd hear "Breathe" at a Pink Floyd concert, I'd stop wherever I was and   
   whatever I was doing and concentrate on singing the song out loud. And I was   
   always far away from the front of the stage. I'd stand there and sing the song   
   loudly and sometimes with    
   my girlfriend, in hopes that my spirit would carry my voice up to the stage.   
   Most times in the 60's and 70's we wouldn't just sit at concerts like kids do   
   now. We'd walk around, look for friends, meet new people, smoke weed and the   
   now legendary music    
   was background music to our lives. It was like a guide to me directing me to   
   where I am today. I think I took the lyrics quite literally without knowing it   
   and I followed them and they weaved into my life.   
      
   So here I was in 1994 directly in front of David Gilmour and "Breathe" was   
   starting...I heard a voice inside me say "Do the best you can, remember how   
   you sang it years ago and don't go beyond his voice, stay within it". I   
   totally went for it, stood up    
   and sang it as loudly as I could and tried blending my voice with his, just   
   like I remember doing before..I didn't care if I was bothering people next to   
   me. I'm sure others were singing it too, but I was loud and very good. A   
   spirit was guiding me along.   
    At one moment I almost forgot the lyrics, but I didn't. It's a very beautiful   
   song "Breathe breathe in the air, don't be afraid to care" Writing about this   
   very important part of the story is emotional for me and my heart is racing   
   and beating so hard,    
   but I have to breathe and continue..you'll understand when I talk about the   
   "P.U.L.S.E CD and DVD.   
      
   Singing it was also like I was telling Gilmour "Leave but don't leave me, look   
   around choose your own ground" like..don't forget about me even though you   
   have to leave. "and when at last the work is done, don't sit down it's time to   
   dig another one" is    
   like what I'm doing now writing even though I'm done with one chapter it's   
   time to write another one. But my favorite line is "For long you live and high   
   you fly" and I wish for everyone to live a very long life and I hope that   
   through this writing    
   Gilmour and all the others can watch me fly.   
      
   The song Comfortably Numb was starting and once again I felt like the band was   
   talking to me Rick, Jon and Guy singing "Hello is there anybody in there just   
   nod if you can hear me..Is there anyone at home. Come on now I hear you're   
   feeling down, well I    
   can ease your pain get you on your feet again. Relax, I need some information   
   first just the basic facts, can you show me where it hurts" It was like old   
   friends asking me how I was doing and if they could help me out. The music was   
   the medicine and they    
   were telling me that it would ease my pain.   
      
   Then, it was as if God himself broke through the clouds, but it was Gilmour in   
   the dark with a light shining on him and he said "There is no pain, you are   
   receding.. a distant ship's smoke on the horizon". To me, it meant that the   
   ELP Pirates ship was    
   long gone and all that was left was a distant ship smoke from their canons.   
      
      
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