From: denisesharpe15@yahoo.com   
      
   In 2017, I saw the online video of the 2016 concert called David Gilmour Live   
   in Wroclaw. It was also pretty cool because my grandparents were born in   
   Poland, but I've never been there. In between the songs "Shine on you Crazy   
   Diamond" and "Coming Back    
   to Life", my two most loved songs, was a new song called "Dancing Right in   
   Front of Me" from the 2015 album "Rattle that Lock". My thoughts went back to   
   1994, when I sat and stood right in front of him.    
   The first part of the song.."Maybe I should have shown you a clearer plainer   
   truth, that doesn't care about summer and less about youth. Now in this   
   silence, what more is there to do. Something has broken in me and in you" and   
   the last part "There's a    
   wide horizon, go on now take a chance. Your star is shining, it lights a   
   brighter path. It's all there inside you, take one day at a time, reeling,   
   freewheeling, I want to watch you fly"   
      
   Ever since I watched Gilmour sing that song, I've been writing a little every   
   day. Instead of trying to write it all from beginning to end, I started this   
   website and put it all into sections. So whenever I think of something, I can   
   put my thoughts in    
   the year that they belong. It is all here inside me really. I have a new   
   awareness now that I didn't have before and it's guiding me. There was a long   
   silence from me for years because I had to give up trying because it hurt not   
   being able to get through.   
    I was angry that I couldn't get the story out by myself. I felt abandoned at   
   times and I couldn't find any real love anywhere, and nobody on this side of   
   the wall understood me, or what I went through. So I went back to watch Carl   
   play drums. He knew    
   what I went through because he caused it. I knew he didn't love me and I was   
   afraid of him. I still enjoyed watching him play, I wouldn't let him take away   
   my love for drumming and he influenced me to play.. I also went back because I   
   wanted to be    
   rescued from him again. I thought I was forgotten. I didn't know where to   
   turn, I still don't. But I'm not going back to watch him, that's for sure, he   
   started back up hurting my feelings again.   
      
   --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05   
    * Origin: you cannot sedate... all the things you hate (1:229/2)