From: williamkeithmahler1967@gmail.com   
      
   but, im left to believe after she asked me if i wanted her to quit porno and   
   she said she will quit if i did   
   she fully knew why she came to me about trafficking   
   fully knew earlier today   
   of my human trafficking dialog with her contact details   
   included   
   she texted she has been at the doctorrs   
   back with a fever   
   my mind hears "she is filming this herself" and "she is pulling down his pants"   
   and this is on the heals of being in front of the human rights commisoin fo   
   the un   
   and other places   
   and she knew   
   when she learned that, her response was " are you serious"   
   but heard in my ear   
   so, my experiecne   
   my own wife, every single time i told her every human reason to quit cheating   
   much like the text in that message   
   everytime, well, form voice talk, body language   
   she didnt give a flying fuck about ti and did it anyways   
   to the pont of her knowing exactly what she was in the spriit o f the nation   
   she was being a whore the same behavoir that is the dna of war itself   
   what the fuck?   
   and to this day feel entirely powerless   
   maybe its me?  there are bigger hung guys certianly   
   but how i should have let my emotions be felt by me, and her   
   no, im almsot a closed book i suppose in some respect   
   the last tijme i had sex   
   mhy body absoltely was consumed entirely by emotion non stop culminating in s   
   stream that was non stop for at least a nar minute   
   so mcuh she could not keep it at all   
   that is entrely the life i did not have until jodi audet and i did july 2011   
   and what psychiatry adds fuel to the fire is no ability to enjoy life   
   wht the fuck   
   to that i say, tis a casualty of being a sector cell person   
   and that i wil lnot ever ever mention in person, face to face with any mental   
   health pro in any capacity   
   consdiering the absolute insane drugs they force   
   not a therapist   
   not a relationship counslier   
   not a sex therapist   
   no dr ruth   
   ot that, no one, not howard stern   
   get into me about that?   
   sure, i can talk   
   bu to the extent to as its known seek help   
   fuck that entirely no way ever happening   
   uh ujh   
   let another pro get into this head?   
   no ton your life   
   that is top secret on a nuclear missle level   
   tis why entirely im really just grasping my words to mila, the weight..for all   
   intent purposes she has  percieved me to be a non profesisonal romantic   
   interest   
   sp she had genuinly said shed quit   
   but i hear she is working now   
   this is the stuff i dont lile   
   pulluted   
   but, love is  a long rod   
   anonymous   
   maybe you do know   
   but only obama knows by my email to him   
   the woman by all conscievable realtiy is my destiny   
   and if its true, she came from the springsteeen family   
   years ago   
   no makeup   
   a true attraction of mine   
   sincere honest, look of genuine happiness with a smile in eyes and entirely   
   near angelic innocent   
   long flowing chestnut hair   
   and ample breasts   
   do you now know why if she texts back, csnsdiering she  liked me first and i   
   responded   
   you kow why i wont be here   
   aanywhere at all except with her   
   entirely in my okcupid app on my  phone and on my laptop   
   every trace of her is gone   
   not  a hint   
   so, she read my profiel and ran for her life   
   or, she quit   
   but if i have to go entirely  on spirit on this to find her   
   in the face of what im doing for business   
   sadlhy i say, that was cruel   
   hipe you understand, well mabye she wil email me   
   she has my number   
   maybe she tried   
   maybe she is scared shitless of me with hatred   
   maybe she is being exactly what women are known for   
   drawing men in entirely   
   i only know her first name   
   and she is lives in connecticut   
   the movie tenent is the same mentality   
   one word   
   truly my emotons and vision are incapable of grasping the limiteless meaning   
   of the sentence in my  mind to this effect "shes worth it"   
   fpr if they could   
   id probably be a magjician legit and float straight through the window in   
   front o fme   
   to contemplate christina in the company of chris morris? at dinner tonight?   
   understand how i seem this as her going straight into the home of satans   
   entertainment minister   
   to think she will no doubt, hail marys in church soon   
      
   --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05   
    * Origin: you cannot sedate... all the things you hate (1:229/2)