From: oldernow@dev.null   
      
   I can't help it. I read blog/phlog/gemlog posts,   
   and they're often expressing pain, and I want so   
   badly to alleviated it. Yeah, with words, which is   
   probably silly. But what else in there given the   
   circumstances? Words have comforted me, or at least   
   distracted me enough from whatever sorrowful matter at   
   hand for it to magickally dissipate the way overly-repeated   
   mental shite often does.   
      
   One of the biggest areas of of "Damn!" for me is all   
   the younger people posting. I was that way too. Except   
   in my day there honestly weren't a whole lot of others   
   doing such compared to now - especially the all-important   
   opposite gender others. But it's "Damn!" for knowing they   
   not only likely couldn't relate to me, but have likely   
   been mental/emotional -ly poisoned about anyone/everyone   
   my age and/or skin color and/or gender. I won't even be   
   given a chance. I've become the default Satan/Hitler.   
      
   I saw that coming for a couple decades, by the way. I   
   think I was even somewhat part of it, for being capable   
   of acknowledging the sins of others with said ridiculously   
   arbitrary attributes. Acknowledging such wound up becoming   
   some kind of admission of guilt - and a permanent one at   
   that.   
      
   "AHA! YOU EVEN ADMIT YOU'RE ONE OF THEM!"   
      
   That seems to be the peak of mental acuity/discernment   
   out there these days.   
      
   And nothing could be further from the truth. I lived with   
   people of skin color not mine in the 1980s. I married   
   "outside my race" in the last 1980s. I've multi-racial   
   children.   
      
   But, nope. Irrelevant. Just take one look at me and   
   judge....   
      
      
      
   --   
   oldernow   
   xyz001 at nym.hush.com   
      
   --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05   
    * Origin: you cannot sedate... all the things you hate (1:229/2)