From: oldernow@dev.null   
      
   How does one cease taking personally what one caved into   
   taking personally, and then hyper-dwelled upon until   
   feeling as though the matter necessitated never again   
   interacting in the space in which the seeming judgement   
   occurred?   
      
   For example, a few days ago I posted something to   
   rec.music.beatles that I felt really good about, but the   
   first (and for quite a few days, only) response had me   
   feeling like a complete doof. Not that that's necessarily   
   what the author intended (says the hypocritical numbskull   
   that occasional speaks of freedom from the notion of will   
   / intention...). But sometimes lack of clarity seemingly   
   invites my "erring on the side of they probably meant   
   it judgmentally" due to the frequency with which that's   
   seemed to happen online..., which, of course, is arguably   
   the worst possible "erring" for the situation....   
      
   Anyway, that led me to considering no longer bothering with   
   rec.music.beatles at all going forward. And that feels   
   harsh. But I do get in punishing moods, and of course am   
   sufficiently egotistic to imagine my absence could actually   
   punish others....   
      
   This is all so ridiculous! Just fucking shoot me now!   
      
   What led to the above was a comment on a previous post of   
   mine, except the respondent didn't quote me, or provide   
   any clue save the Subject: line what post they were   
   referring to. Yeah, I guess I could wade through slrn   
   documentation to see if some kind of search by Message-Id   
   is possible after staring at the headers of their post for   
   a while... or whatever it would take. I've this vague idea   
   it's a lot of work for having tried it God knows how long   
   ago... but maybe I was even dumber back then than I am now?   
      
   But there was an exacerbating factor, namely a Gemini post   
   from an author I had a weird falling out with sometime in   
   the last year. It was complete and total misunderstanding,   
   but my attempts to point that out only solidified my status   
   as "weird stalker" in their mind, so I've completely given   
   up trying to communicate with them. But that bothers me to   
   no end, because we never even really got off the ground,   
   and I very much admire their writing.   
      
   Whoda thunk all those years ago that the primary purpose of   
   the internet was to help develop human shrugging muscles...?   
      
   --   
   oldernow   
   xyz001 at nym.hush.com   
      
   --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05   
    * Origin: you cannot sedate... all the things you hate (1:229/2)