From: hiding5693@gmail.com   
      
   I sometimes fantasize dying an untimely death and afterward going to God’s   
   heaven, where my spiritual essence would thereafter take revenge upon all   
   those who might have done wrongs against me during my lifetime, which might   
   actually be quite a few    
   people. I also fantasize my being able to unnaturally mutate to such a point   
   that I would no longer need to consume any food at all in order to sustain my   
   body, a fantasy which would perhaps necessarily violate one or two of the   
   scientific laws of the    
   conservation of energy.   
      
   With regard to the former of the above mentioned fantasies, I am not   
   necessarily one of the 144,000, according to the Bible at least. But I   
   sometimes feel a connection with God and heaven regardless, and I do not   
   always regard the Bible alone as being    
   the ultimate source of God’s word or will.   
      
   With regard to the second fantasy, I am inclined to fasting in excess, as I am   
   somewhat overweight. But both parental and civil authority might demand that I   
   eat more than I desire to eat, sometimes even when I feel little or no hunger   
   at all. In light    
   of that fact, I will perhaps never be able to find out exactly how far I can   
   “mutate”.   
      
   I tend to dislike most authority, except that of a spiritual God himself. Even   
   the authority of Jesus Christ in sometimes a bit questionable to myself. I am   
   a bit agnostic with regard to the divine nature of Christ. But I have very few   
   doubts about the    
   existence of his alleged father God.   
      
   --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05   
    * Origin: you cannot sedate... all the things you hate (1:229/2)