From: nanimo314@gmail.com   
      
   I guess mostly what keeps me here is fear of the afterlife, of hell forever on   
   the other side.  I still feel like a temporary hell in this world is better   
   than the possibility of a permanent hell somewhere else.  However, my strength   
   to hang on is fading,   
    and I might be unable to hold on despite any fears and feelings.   
      
   To a lesser extent, I also stay here out of stupid hope that somehow things   
   might get better, or to at least do some fun things before I quit (like a   
   "bucket list" kind of), to have at least a little happiness.  Also, I feel   
   like killing myself is giving    
   a victory to all those people and circumstances that have hurt me, who'd look   
   at my death as their triumph.  My staying alive is like the ultimate "fuck   
   you".   
      
   But of course my strength is fading so all my reasons might be just academic,   
   and come to nothing anyway.   
      
   --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05   
    * Origin: you cannot sedate... all the things you hate (1:229/2)