From: joshuacarter695@gmail.com   
      
   On Tuesday, December 23, 2014 12:02:11 AM UTC-5, Lost wrote:   
   > Hello,   
   > Since your reading this, then that must mean your still living. My question   
   is what keeps you here? Or are you just waiting for the next bus?    
   >    
   > For me,my friends are what keeps me here. Don't get me wrong I'm still   
   pretty suicidal, but I'm terrified on how my death will affect them. I found   
   myself staring at my Facebook friend list and crying while muttering "I'm   
   sorry, I'm sorry."  I know    
   that they will be angry at me, but I'm angry at life and at myself.  A friend   
   of mine sister committed suicide years ago and I remember giving her my   
   condolences, so I feel guilty for having this feelings. Whenever I feel   
   lonely, I know i can just text    
   or call my friends.     
   >    
   > I figured that I should ask this question because my first question that i   
   posted here was "why do you want to die?". I hate having this wars in my head.   
      
   for me, its family, hope, and the lack of materials needed for a surefire   
   death, like a gun, or nembutal.   
      
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