From: anna.gonzales.wpg@gmail.com   
      
   On Sunday, January 4, 2015 10:05:15 PM UTC-6, mermaidpri...@gmail.com wrote:   
   > On Sunday, January 4, 2015 10:00:52 PM UTC-5, Lost wrote:   
   > > On Sunday, January 4, 2015 6:54:35 PM UTC-6, mermaidpri...@gmail.com wrote:   
   > > > I leave for NYC tomorrow morning, staying until Wednesday and planning   
   on ending things Friday. It's gonna be my final hurrah. I'm seeing two of my   
   best friends, we're gonna get shitfaced and high as a kite. Alcohol, weed,   
   coke, the works. I'm    
   gonna go out and live like a wild queen in the city and then come home and die   
   warm and cozy in my bed. It's exactly how I want to go. One last hurrah but in   
   my last moments safe and warm and peaceful.   
   > > >    
   > > > Leave your name here and I'll be sure to take a shot/hit for you ;)   
   > >    
   > > You sure you will be able to hang out with your friends, knowing full well   
   that you will never see them again? Won't they sense something?   
   >    
   > One of them knows I have been considering this for awhile and is   
   understanding enough to not spew bullshit platitudes at me or insist I GET   
   HELP!11!! (I have been in more programs/on more meds/seen more doctors over   
   the years than I can even say) and    
   the other will be hard to see of course, but won't sense anything. I've been   
   fighting a really long time, it's time.   
      
   That friend i a really good friend. And very understanding too.  I wish that I   
   had friend like that, I remember when I told a friend of mine of my previous   
   attempts she shouted at me"DON"T BE STUPID" and "GET HELP". Dam, that made me   
   feel worse at myself    
   and I remember thinking, "I don't need help, I need a shotgun".   
      
   --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05   
    * Origin: you cannot sedate... all the things you hate (1:229/2)