From: noreply@remailer.cpunk.us   
      
   That is the bottom line.   
      
   My life is so miserable and fucked up, that   
   I would be better off not even living.   
      
   I know that I really should kill myself as   
   soon as possible.  But I am afraid of the   
   actual death moment itself.   
      
   I sometimes think that I should die in a   
   really painful and gruesome way, in public,   
   because that would be a cool social   
   statement.  Everybody could admire me, and   
   they would all feel happy as they cheer me   
   on.  That would feel cool.   
      
   The idea of pain a blood and guts sounds fun,   
   but it is still scary, and I need some   
   motivation and encouragement to just grit   
   my teeth and go ahead with it.   
      
   I would appreciate any advice or ideas.  Or   
   just any encouragement to get my energy up   
   to finally do it.   
      
   Thank you.   
      
   Lori Nadeau   
      
   Phone - (714) 771-8493 or (562) 434-2244   
      
   Email - lorij4j@icloud.com   
      
   183 N Grand St   
   Orange, CA 92866   
      
   --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05   
    * Origin: you cannot sedate... all the things you hate (1:229/2)