From: anna.gonzales.wpg@gmail.com   
      
   On Friday, January 9, 2015 at 6:14:31 AM UTC-6, insilencebreathing wrote:   
   > Hi Lost - sympathise with the thing about having to hide and to try find a   
   place where to stash stuff etc. Strict parents don't make it easy...increases   
   sense of living a double life. One is where you have to act 'normal' whatever   
   that is, in front of    
   others including those related to you. Other is where you're still having all   
   those situations you have to experience alone and all those thoughts that you   
   feel cannot openly be discussed.   
      
   *takes deep breath   
   I know, it is rough. The sad thing is, I'm known as the happy and relax one   
   with a positive outlook  and a great sense of humor in my group of friends.   
   But in reality I been depress for so long, but I don't want to worry anyone   
   with my problems and I    
   need to keep up my image as the sane and responsiblity one. IT IS DRIVING ME   
   CRAZY.   
      
   Because my parents don't accept my sexuality and i'm not out to most of my   
   friends, I just feel so lonely and self-hating all the time. Because I feel   
   like I'm lying to everyeone and whenever I'm hanging out with someone who I   
   haven't come out to, I can'   
   t help but think "would they still talk to me, if they knew?". Makes you feel   
   like a wanted criminal. It doesn't help that half the people that i have come   
   out to have outright rejected me.     
   Will someone just shoot me and put me out of my misery?   
      
   --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05   
    * Origin: you cannot sedate... all the things you hate (1:229/2)