From: ashsadg@gmail.com   
      
   fucking drunk and thinking about ctb again? hmmm??????   
   but i cant do it right now as my son is going to the university in X   
   months.   
      
   so i have X months more to be here and then you guys will never see me   
   again.   
   its pretty easy...money+black market+prescriptions+drugstore+meds+hotel=   
   ac method.   
      
   what a wasted life! theres nothing wrong tho. i'm not sad or pissed off,   
   maybe a lil bit depressed and feeling empty. thats all and idk why. i   
   was supposed to be fine and happy, no? but i dont feel like that   
   anymore. since december last year.   
      
   no money problems. no weight problems, no family problems...but it makes   
   no sense once i wanna die, just like i see no point of getting a tattoo   
   to cover my 30cm of scars up (what i'm wainting for about 5 years). i   
   mean, who the hell are gonna notice on my left arm if im dead anyway?   
      
   ehh, its a confused boozed post, i know, but fuck it. i need to vent   
      
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