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   fatgary to All   
   My experience with H2S   
   09 Jul 18 12:39:18   
   
   From: no@way.com   
      
   I attempted to take my own life on Saturday, but here I am at work   
    Monday morning. Oh well.   
      
   I decided to try making a "detergent suicide" mixture, purchasing   
    Lime Sulfur and Hydrochloric Acid from the hardware   
    store.   
      
   I prepared a bucket with a hood made of a garbage bag, and put out   
    some signs to warn the discoverer of my body and the emergency   
    services that H2S could still be in the atmosphere.   
      
   I mixed the chemicals but did not anticipate such a rapid and   
    violent reaction. Before I could bring the hood over my head I   
    remember reeling, a rapid tightening if my chest, experiencing my   
    vision fading, and my hearing becoming distorted. My breathing   
    was strained, and to me each breath sounded like, well, I don't   
    quite know how to describe it really, like road noise perhaps?   
    But amplified and layered over itself a bunch of   
    times.   
      
   Anyway, I started regaining awareness some time later, but I   
    wasn't in control of my body. My face was pressed right into the   
    lawn, and although I couldn't see, my eyes were darting   
    uncontrollably in all directions. This went on for a few minutes,   
    I think. Gradually I recovered the ability to move and regathered   
    myself. I went inside for a shower and a smoke, and noticed that   
    the same TV show was running that was on when I went outside to   
    begin the process. So from beginning to passing out to recovering   
    had taken around 20 minutes.   
      
   At no stage did I panic, or lose the drive to follow through, but   
    unfortunately my body's reflexes did what they do best, and flung   
    me away from danger with gay abandon.   
      
   Just wanted to share my story. If anyone else is planning to use   
    this method, I suggest either the use of a sedative, or perhaps   
    allowing the gas concentration to build up more gradually, so   
    unconsciousness precedes the body's reaction to being   
    poisoned.   
      
   I have access to argon gas, I think when the next opportunity to   
    seek deliverance comes, I will use the exit hood method. I chose   
    H2S because the opportunity to be interrupted is meant to be much   
    shorter, but retrospectively I did not sufficiently research the   
    downsides of this method.   
      
      
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