From: tkira0717@gmail.com   
      
   On 2023. 05. 31. 11:53, Simon Ferrol wrote:   
   > I mean, I am such a failure at everything. How did I manage to stay alive?   
      
   Same here. I start to believe that there's a higher power which controls   
   our miserable lives, call it God, fate or anything; and it is toying   
   with us, laughing at us while we suffer. When I hit the rock bottom,   
   I've tried to kill myself, but I survived (surprising, eh?). After that   
   incident, I don't even feel like a human being anymore. It's like I've   
   become detached from my body and senses a long time ago, and my emotions   
   are basically non-existent. I am not happy, nor sad, not even angry. I   
   feel nothing. Emptiness. I am not actively suicidal, but I wouldn't mind   
   if a train hit me or someone murdered me atm. My life holds no value to   
   me anymore. If I could switch with someone, who really deserves to live,   
   but, for example, they're terminally ill, I wouldn't hesitate.   
      
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