From: lilytiger73@yahoo.com   
      
   Title: Bad Mix   
   Author: Dana Doggett   
   Feedback: feedback@danadoggett.com   
   Date: August 2, 2006   
   Rating: PG-13 (use of the "F" word)   
   Category: Doggett POV, drabble   
   Word Count: 116   
   Timeline: soon after Luke's death, 1993   
      
   Disclaimer: In my hands these characters really aren't the   
   characters that surfer created, they're better  than that, they like to   
   explore more extreme possibilities.   
      
   Beta: none   
      
   Summary: Musings of John Doggett soon after the death of his son   
   in 1993.   
      
   Dedication: To smackalalala, this drabble is for you.   
      
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   There it sits in all its fucking glory, the empty glass. Barbara's   
   going to be pissed, but I don't care. This is how I'm dealing with   
   it. The alcohol numbs the pain.   
      
   Luke is gone. There's nothing either of us can do about it. She   
   longs for comfort. I long for alcohol. I long for my own pathetic   
   life to end. I blame myself.   
      
   My revolver sits next to me. I can already smell the gunpowder. I   
   empty all rounds but one. Locked and loaded, one bullet. I spin the   
   cylinder.   
      
   The muzzle is cold against my temple. I pull the trigger.   
      
   Nothing.   
      
   Monica would say this is a sign that there's something worth living   
   for.   
      
   END   
      
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