From: eblair@sonic.net   
      
   TITLE: You're Alive   
   AUTHOR: Erin M. Blair   
   E-MAIL: eblair@sonic.net   
   CLASSIFICATION: VRA--Vignette, Romance, Angst.   
   CONTENT: Mulder/Scully Romance.   
   RATING: PG   
   DISTRIBUTION: OK to Gossamer, Ephemeral,   
   After the Fact, MSR Fanfic Cheerleader Archive.   
   SPOILERS: Redux II   
   SETTING: Season Five.   
   DISCLAIMER: Mulder and Scully belong to Chris   
   Carter.   
   FEEDBACK: Yes, please.   
   ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS: Thanks to Jen for beta reading   
   this story for me.   
   SUMMARY: Mulder reflects about Scully's remission   
   from cancer.   
      
      
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   You're Alive   
   Written by: Erin M. Blair   
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   Before Skinner led me away, I saw how pale   
   your beautiful porcelain skin was. The only   
   color you had was your red hair flowing   
   down over the pillow. You were dying, Scully,   
   and they wanted to take me away from you.   
      
   You could have been dead, Scully. I would never   
   have forgiven myself for not holding you in your   
   last hours. I promised that we would always be   
   together, no matter what happens. I'll never   
   break my promise to you.   
      
   No matter what.   
      
   If you were dead, my heart would be broken into   
   bits and pieces. No one would have picked up   
   the pieces. I would have killed myself with my   
   own gun. I couldn't fathom being without you. I   
   don't want to try and find out.   
      
   I'm thankful that I found your cure. I know we   
   never knew what cured you. We have our   
   different views on it, but I'm grateful to   
   whoever or whatever power that made   
   you well.   
      
   You're alive, Scully; I'm alive, too.   
      
   ~~ the end ~~   
      
   Author's Notes:   
      
   I enjoyed writing "Praying for Health" so much   
   that I wanted to write a follow up using Mulder's   
   POV. I loved the episode, "Redux II," so much   
   because I understood what Mulder and Scully   
   went through. Cancer affects the whole family,   
   not just the woman (or man) suffering from the   
   disease. I wanted to try to convey the pain, the   
   fear, and the hope Mulder had for Scully's   
   remission.   
      
   I hope that I succeeded.   
      
   I would like to thank my readers for their   
   feedback and for encouraging me over the years.   
   Most of all, I would like to thank my beta reader,   
   Jen, for helping me with this story. :)   
      
   ~Erin M. Blair   
   November 1, 2004   
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   eblair@sonic.net   
      
      
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