XPost: alt.suicide.holiday, alt.usenet.kooks   
   From: undertow@news.vrx.net   
      
   In article <4a6cbf1d@news.x-privat.org>,   
   illyria   wrote:   
   >Christopher wrote:   
   >> On Jul 26, 9:19 am, illyria  wrote:   
   >>> Christopher wrote:   
   >>>> Hey,   
   >>>> It's Christopher again.  I'm planning on catching the bus to get out   
   >>>> of some legal problems I'm in.   
   >>>> I think I want to use a firearm.  My problem is I get very upset at   
   >>>> the thought of shooting myself.  Are there any over the counter   
   >>>> methods of relaxation?  How can I mentally/emotionally prep myself for   
   >>>> this?   
   >>> booze   
   >>>   
   >>>> My life will be completely destroyed after being convicted of this   
   >>>> offense(I hardly have the money for my lawyer, much less the court/   
   >>>> probation fees that will ensue), so I need to get the guts to complete   
   >>>> this attempt.   
   >>> booze   
   >>>   
   >>> actually if you let yourself be subjected to the horrors of the courts   
   >>> and jail and stuff that may depress you to the point where you won't   
   >>> feel bad about offing yourself   
   >>>   
   >>>> And how do you cope with the guilt of hurting loved ones?  I know my   
   >>>> mom will be upset, but I will be a complete financial burden to her   
   >>>> after the courts rule against me.  I wanted to write a good letter   
   >>>> assuring her it's not her fault and that I think this is for the   
   >>>> better.   
   >>> she'll probably insist that it's "her fault" even if you do write a   
   >>> letter, but she'll get over it eventually   
   >>>   
   >>>> I despise being trapped in this stupid game where cops, lawyers and   
   >>>> judges all work together to take your money, destroy your life and   
   >>>> "make an example out of you" for a "crime" that was victimless.   
   >>> the so-called "justice" system is a fucked up fantasy land that mostly   
   >>> exists to generate wealth for the government   
   >>   
   >> I agree with the last statement.  Those fuckers aren't getting a penny   
   >> from me.  Only person I'm paying is my defense lawyer and if he can't   
   >> get the job done I'm leaving this planet.   
   >>   
   >> Any suggestions besides booze?  Something that would have the effect   
   >> of Vicodin maybe?  Also, is there anything that acts as a pain   
   >> suppressant?   
   >   
   >well, booze is a pain suppressant.  i mean, it raises your pain   
   >threshold.  if you get really plastered it raises it enough to where you   
   >could do a pretty good number on yourself without hurting too too bad.   
   >   
   >but i don't know anything about meds so i don't know what else to recommend.   
   >   
   >when kurt cobain blew himself away he got really really high on heroin   
   >first, so maybe that's what you need.  (i have no idea how to get that   
   >though)   
      
      
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