From: nobody@pseudo.borked.net   
      
   I live in a state where if you are identified as mentally ill you become a   
   ward of the state and you are FORCED to 'get help' and see a psychiatrist for   
   the REST OF YOUR LIFE. I had become psychotic due to a manic reaction to a   
   very strong, little    
   prescribed MAOI which has fallen in disfavor among psychiatrists. This drug   
   literaLLY BLEW MY MIND BY BOOSTING three different neurotransmitter chemicals,   
   and I became extremely euphoric. This took place over many years, and   
   eventually I had a reaction    
   similiar to amphetamine psychosis. I was then labeled a 'schizophrenic' and   
   forced to take neuoroleptics, that made me impotent, and made me feel dead   
   inside. I was forced to take these meds over and over and over and I always   
   went of them. This wreaked    
   havoc with my brain chemistry. Since I loved the euphoria the maoi gave me, I   
   took more than I should. I have no one to blamne but myself for that part of   
   whatever happened to my brain. The neuroleptic medications were forced on me   
   however, and I think    
   that I had a rebound psychosis when I went off them, and this happened over   
   and over for years. Last year I developed a severe sleeping disorder while I   
   was being kept prisoner in a hospital. When the sleep disorder began, I was   
   stable and being force    
   fed medicine under threat of forcible injections. My sleep disorder is   
   coincidental. It has nothing to do with being 'off' medication. I know that I   
   am not now slipping into another psychosis. I have no symptoms whatsoever. The   
   problem I need help with,    
   is that I tried telling my psychiatrist that I was only getting 2 to 3 hours   
   of very light non REM sleep per week and he does not beleive me. He is telling   
   me that I am sleeping and that I am delusional. He is telling me I have sleep   
   apnia. I know this    
   is not the case because i am on the internet all night long and most of the   
   day. If I was falling alsleep in front of the monitor I would know it, and I   
   am most certainly NOT. I am on SSI, and medicare will not cover sleep   
   disorders. I have tried to    
   contact physicians and I am being ignored because I can't pay. I understand   
   that this is life in the big city but I think i might get some help if   
   medicare knew how serious my condition is. How can I prove that I am only   
   getting two to three hours of    
   sleep? Who do I write to for help in this regard? Has anyone heard of this   
   kind of severe sleep deprivation? I saw a program on the E channel once about   
   celebrity mental disorders, and a celebrity whose name escapes me was said to   
   only get 2 hours of    
   sleep a week before he finally got treatment. Is their a website that   
   documents this kind of severe lack of sleep as even existing? If there is   
   please tell me so I can prove it to my caregivers.   
      
   --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05   
    * Origin: you cannot sedate... all the things you hate (1:229/2)